Back on the Wagon

Ahh my blog, we meet again. I haven't posted in so long, partially due to my shame. The stress and rich food of Christmas set me back a bit. But I'm trying to get back on track now, so I feel like I can post again. I was in the high 180s before Christmas and trending down but afterward I weighed in at 192. bleugh! I guess that setbacks are just part of the process right?  Isn't that the way they say it goes..... (now I'm singing Jim Croce in my head, thanks Mom for the songs of the 70's.) I feel like it's important to take a step back and see how I'm trending over-all so I don't get discouraged. Here's what my Wii-Fit tells me:

So not too bad right? you can see the little blips were things go wrong, but overall it's trending in a downward trajectory.

Besides the weight gain, the worst part of trying to get back into the swing of things is how quickly my body loses the things I worked so hard on. I've lost a lot of muscle from my spin class, just the few squats and lunges I did last week made me sore for days, when they shouldn't have been quite so hard. So it's been frustrating to not be able to do the things that I could do just a few months ago. I've got to pull my Schwinn out of the cats room and get back on it.

I have noticed that I generally feel better on the days when I at least did a few yoga poses in the morning, but it's just so hard to get up in the morning. I've been trying to take my metformin at night before I go to bed so that I remember to take it, and I usually eat something pretty close to bedtime (not good for dieting I know, but I just can't help it) so my stomach doesn't get so upset.

On that note of late night snacks, I'm pretty frustrated with the Phentermine; it suppresses my appetite all day, so at lunch time I usually can hardly even look at the food.  Then dinner is a little bit better, but since I hardly ate any lunch I'm completely ravenous when I get home at 6:00 and I just can't take the time to cook something that is more well balanced. So I eat something very small (usually moderately healthy) just to tide me over until my food is cooked, but then that little something has filled the place of my dinner and I'm not hungry any more. Then at 10:30 I'm rampaging through the kitchen trying to ease the insatiable appetite that consumes me. Eventually I tell myself that I've eaten plenty, even though I still feel like I could polish off an entire package of saltine crackers, and then I go to bed. Then since my stomach was unhappy before I went to bed, I wake up starving but as my habits have made it impossible for me to wake up when I want to, I don't have time for breakfast other than what I can grab as we're heading out the door and eat in the car. It's an infuriating process!

I meet with my doctor again next week, hopefully we can figure something out or he'll explain that it's all normal and I shouldn't worry.